I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT I'M DOING, I JUST MISS HIM A LOT!!
see, i've got this longing feeling sooo suddenly this morning,, i'm not really sure what was really happening when suddenly i feel like ...
i miss my boo sooo much .. heehee, i do, even i know it happens all the time =p
but let me tell you that it feels like a different feeling as what i've had in many previous time before,,
it was, .. when i watched this movie in the morning, .. ehm, okay, this (after)noon, Shutter,, and the actor Joshua Jackson just got me thinking of him again .. i think you recognize this of feeling, you know .. your heart beats so fast and then you cannot stop thinking of him until the day's gone by and gone through the night .. (well, i never know i'll write such of this expression)
and i also cant help myself not to text him, so when i did it this evening and said
'is it the same rain we're looking at? suddenly i miss you,,'
at one side i feel like the dumbest living thing that ever been in this earth, why would i say such a thing?
but then,
i was thinking, sometimes you just cant figure out what are you really doing when you're in "it",,
the world would seems soooo bright, and then suddenly so blue,,
as does your heart.. and that's what i think happening to me..
i could never explain what i've been doing, or what's exactly happening to me for what i'm feeling about him, so that if could just do something well and organize .. i know everything's in the right place .. (i really miss the time when you said this to me, honey^^)
so, i would miss the everyday when we spend our whole day together, doing anything we like and feel free for all that we have,,
i really would miss your morning greet to wake me up,,
and last but not least,
when will you purpose me again?
hehehe,,
